Archive for August, 2010

So this is the next big Adventure!

August 12, 2010

Well it is not Monday and I really don’t have any new pictures to share, just some observations. Hope you can indulge me.

The passing of my sister Linda has created an incredible void in my life. I knew we were close, but did not realize just how much I depended on her joyful observations and enlightenments every week.

I have decided to move into the family home. Not sure for how long, that will depend on several things. But hey- one day at a time…

So I have started moving my things down from San Francisco a van load at a time. I think doing it in bits and pieces will be better for me than one fell swoop- as they say. It gives me time to drive, to ponder, to clean and organize and also to exorcise the ghosts and memories of 45+ years of being connected with this house. I remember when my parents built it, I was 11 years old I think.They hired a contractor, worked with him on the design, the layout and the materials. My Father was an electrician and a very handy man having grown up on a farm, so he/we did a lot of the work ourselves. I remember painting all of the walls- choosing colors with Mom. Finishing the kitchen cabinets and choosing the fixtures for the sinks, lighting and all. It seemed like such a big house, and still is compared to where I was living in San Francisco. 3 bedrooms 2 bathrooms a big yard and a beautiful kitchen. The garage has been converted into a room and will become my art studio. I have visions of fruit trees, vegetable garden and a place to entertain.

I remember being a teenager in this house, an above ground pool in the backyard and a pool table in the family room. I remember the night of my wedding and the after party my parents had here for their friends. I remember my children running through the living room and my Mother asking them to slow down! so they would not fall into the sliding glass door.  There have been so many good memories of happenings in this house and there has also been much sadness in this house. The illnesses and passing of both parents and my sister. The heartache that all of that has entailed. It became a dark, sad place that none of us really wanted to be in. Amazing how that can happen over the years.

I really had no expectations of taking on this project at this point in my life. I just knew Linda was going to get better and I, having given up my apartment in SF in June, was going to be traveling and house-sitting and exploring, helping Linda as I could. Well that all changed in July.

So rewind, reverse, change directions and here I am with a beautiful home that needs to be loved. It needs to be filled once more with laughter and creativity and joy and beauty. And even though I really had no intentions of being the one to do it, I am now stating the intention that this is now what I want to do. This is the place I want to be and this is the task I have set for myself.

There will be a lot of work, a lot of change and a lot of sorting and clearing of memories, things and a lot of healing. I am looking forward to building a life, an art studio and a home here in the desert.

At some point soon, I hope I will be ready for visitors, right now I have my work cut out for me! And I must say it is all good.

blessings

Cheryl

Cheryl McDonald is the owner of Passions at Play Art & Design. She is an artist, illustrator and designer, working in photography, watercolor and more! To see some of her work.

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